You’d think that after enduring disappointment for countless times, I would have learnt how to give up. I guess being stubborn is just one of the annoying qualities about me. I hate that low self-esteemed feeling after not being able to get what I want, but oddly enough, my heart hasn’t decided to give up yet, even though my brain tells me I probably should. 

I think friends who know of my situation think that I am really stupid for putting myself through this, even though they have been nothing short of support. So thank you Chin Win, Nicole and even Stephanie, even though I haven’t known you for a very long time, for always looking out for me & asking if I’m alright whenever I was down. 

There is someone else I wish I could tell, though. I used to share everything with her, but as we grew older I think the sharing sessions became lesser and lesser. I have tried though, but I think the responses I got didn’t give me much space to share more, so eventually I just stopped altogether. I don’t blame her though, I reckon I should’ve tried harder. Of course, this isn’t the end of our friendship. She is my best friend and always will be. And I will die first than let this friendship end.